“I have trouble interpreting neutral emotions because I don’t experience neutral emotions.”

This sentence, said aloud to my husband probably around midnight last night, was a revelation to me. We've been together now for just about a full decade and it took me this long to recognize and understand this very fundamental difference between us. I could turn this into a post about borderline personality disorder (BPD); … Continue reading “I have trouble interpreting neutral emotions because I don’t experience neutral emotions.”

REVIEW: Evil Queen Candles

This post is not sponsored by Evil Queen or anyone else. Links included are for your convenience; I do not receive any compensation for you clicking them.  If you know anything about me, you probably know that I really, really, really, really, really, really like candles, Carly Rae Jepsen style. Yes, I'm obsessed with her … Continue reading REVIEW: Evil Queen Candles

Lloyd.

When I was 21, I tripped harder than I ever have in my life by snorting two hits of 2C-B. It began with Nicholas and I highkey losing our shit (figuratively and literally), then clutching each other on the floor like scared, naked children. After the initial intensity of it was smoothed out (our dealer … Continue reading Lloyd.

Happy New Year! Diet Culture Still Sucks!!

TW: discussion of eating disordersIn a sea of unavoidable "omg I'm gonna eat nothing but bananas and lose, like, so much weight!" posts during this time of year, let me be the light of common sense. Or at least some kind of rebellion against hating yourself so much that starving seems like a good idea. … Continue reading Happy New Year! Diet Culture Still Sucks!!

REVIEW: POP Fit Leggings (2019)

This post is not sponsored by pop fit or anyone else. links included are for your convenience; I do not receive any compensation for you clicking them. Happy New Year! If you're reading this on the day it was written, you're probably filled with well-intentioned goals for 2020. One of the more common resolutions made … Continue reading REVIEW: POP Fit Leggings (2019)

OMG IT’S THE END OF A DECADE *GUNSHOTS* *CASH REGISTER NOISE*

Listen, I am a woman who hoards data as if it's a competitive sport. My tendency to meander through old chat logs, screenshots, and Snap stories is unparalleled among anyone I know. It's been somewhat of a journey for me to learn how to let go of the past and just exist in the present. … Continue reading OMG IT’S THE END OF A DECADE *GUNSHOTS* *CASH REGISTER NOISE*

2019 Resolution Review

2019 Resolutions: Hard Copy So you probably already know by now that I'm kind of big into goals. Hell, I made a whole post last December about SMART goals in reference to making resolutions you might actually achieve. I took my own advice of course at applied all those principles towards my very own list … Continue reading 2019 Resolution Review

Can’t Versus Won’t: Thoughts on Spoon Theory

Saturday, October 08, 2016 The past two weeks, I have had to push myself well beyond my comfortable limits. I truly dealt with the repercussions of this last night, when I was woken up out of a dead sleep by a sensation I can only describe as my arm being pulled out of its socket. … Continue reading Can’t Versus Won’t: Thoughts on Spoon Theory

Mental Health Progress is Not a Straight Line

The past week has been... a ride. It reminded me that recovery is far from linear, and things might set you back, but all you can do is keep moving forward. One of the more notable things that has happened is my recent contact with my ex, Pisces. Our conversations have been cordial with some … Continue reading Mental Health Progress is Not a Straight Line

I have decided to be very candid about my life right now

OR: Is it the BPD or should I be keeping better tabs on my astrology? I don't know but I fucking exhausted, y'all. TW: Self INJURY for real though, my nails are here to stop you in case reading about me cutting might trigger you and cause you to cut. it's not worth it, okay? … Continue reading I have decided to be very candid about my life right now