adhd · mental health · personal

ADHD Trait: Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria

I begun 2021 by having a lowkey mental breakdown. Yesterday was my first critique with my virtual writing group. My first writing critique ever in fact. I was very nervous but also excited! There's no faster way to get better at writing than to get some criticism from fellow writers. Unfortunately, having been called "prolific"… Continue reading ADHD Trait: Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria

self care

Yet another thing about COVID-19!! What a surprise!!!

It's bizarre to think that only a week ago, COVID-19 was a relatively small blip on my radar. I was aware of it but didn't think that it would really affect me personally. Now it's everywhere you look - every business you've ever forgotten you subscribed to has sent an email, schools are closing, store… Continue reading Yet another thing about COVID-19!! What a surprise!!!

anxiety · mental health

The Evolution Of My Panic Attacks

TW: I actually found *myself* triggered as I wrote about this topic which is partially why it's late. This took several sessions to sit down and write. If you are sensitive like me and particularly prone to anxiety/panic when reading specific descriptions of the symptoms, maybe consider skipping this one. At least stay in tune… Continue reading The Evolution Of My Panic Attacks

anxiety · bpd · mental health · mindfulness

Highly Sensitive Person Alert! HSP IS NOT BULLSHIT!!!

Last summer, I had the incredible blessing of being near home for the summer - to make it even better, Nicholas and I were able to visit our hometown and spend the Fourth of July holiday with our best friends. Looking back on it now, I can better appreciate how blessed we were to have… Continue reading Highly Sensitive Person Alert! HSP IS NOT BULLSHIT!!!

body positivity · mental health · Self Improvement

Happy New Year! Diet Culture Still Sucks!!

TW: discussion of eating disordersIn a sea of unavoidable "omg I'm gonna eat nothing but bananas and lose, like, so much weight!" posts during this time of year, let me be the light of common sense. Or at least some kind of rebellion against hating yourself so much that starving seems like a good idea.… Continue reading Happy New Year! Diet Culture Still Sucks!!

anxiety · bpd · mental health · Self Improvement

Mental Health Progress is Not a Straight Line

The past week has been... a ride. It reminded me that recovery is far from linear, and things might set you back, but all you can do is keep moving forward. One of the more notable things that has happened is my recent contact with my ex, Pisces. Our conversations have been cordial with some… Continue reading Mental Health Progress is Not a Straight Line

bpd · mental health

BPD Traits: Difficulty Being Alone & Image Instability

OR: Why I'm obsessed with every person i meet I had a revelation this morning that I think I've probably seen before in myself but refused to really look in the eyes. My words exactly, confided to my best friends and now shared with the internet: "Growing up is accepting that my borderline brain will… Continue reading BPD Traits: Difficulty Being Alone & Image Instability

anxiety · mental health · personal · substance use

The Dark Side of Marijuana (and other drugs I’ve tried)

When I was around 16, I started using the Holy Trinity of introductory drugs: alcohol, nicotine, and marijuana. In the beginning, it was pretty few and far between. When I graduated high school, I had my first of many summers that I would later barely recall due to being in a nearly permanent inebriated state.… Continue reading The Dark Side of Marijuana (and other drugs I’ve tried)